Category: Aidan
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Baby Dedications and Bathroom Stalls
Her son looked so cute. She had found him a little tux. He was the first baby I held after Aidan. How could I tell her how hard this day was going to be for me? My husband and I sat in the pew at our friends’ church. Friends on one side. Strangers on the…
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10 Years Ago
10 years ago. 10 years ago I said hello to my first baby. 10 years ago I said goodbye to my son Aidan. 10 years ago I waited and waited to hear that first cry. 10 years ago I heard that cry after we told the Dr. to stop CPR. 10 years ago I…
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Happy Birthday – Slice of Life
Today my son turns 8! I can hardly believe it. I still can remember the day he was born. I was overdue and was scheduled to be induced on a Monday. My parents from Minnesota decided to come out early. As a little back story, they weren’t able to make it for the birth or…
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Mother’s Day without Children
Happy Mothers Day people cheer all around. You stand there without children. All the moms are getting flowers. Do you go up for one? You are a mother. A mother without a child. Your child is buried in a little cemetery. All the other moms have kids running up with them. Do you walk up…
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Baby Showers and Ventilators
“Oh, you won’t be at her baby shower?” the secretary asked me with a curious expression. I wanted to scream. Had she not read the company-wide email that my infant son had died shortly after birth? Had she forgotten that everyone in the offices should have known about our son’s severe problems? Had she not…
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Laughter in the Midst of Grief
My son missed his own funeral. Yes. You read that correctly. My son missed his own funeral. I can laugh at it. It is one of the aspects of Aidan’s life that brings me a lot of laughter. It is where I can clearly remember laughter in the midst of grief. Aidan only lived for…
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If only she knew….
“Oh, you have two boys with Irish names. How cute,” the lady said to me. “You really need to have a little girl. Caitlin would be a beautiful Irish name for a girl,” she continued. I cringed and laughed it off. “No, I am fine with my boys,” I nicely replied. “Well you must try,”…
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Nine Years Later…
It is hard to believe that today, December 27, 2011, I have a nine-year-old. I think often about the verse that says, “But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.” Luke 2:19 (NIV). And that is what I often do when it comes to Aidan. I ponder. I treasure. Nine…